What did I really want from it ?

 I started looking for a job right after i got my baccalaureate, i got one & i havn't had some good old fashioned fun since the summer of 2014...my god thinking about it..makes me feel a true fomo.
I'm 19 now, but not for long, I have worked like a slave for a year now..and now looking back at it I realise that i didn't get the computer (1) i swore i'd buy with my own $$ , I ddn't save money for travelling  (2) - not that i know my destination, im thinking of sooo many beautiful places ; beaches new people, new waters, new accents, my god i can't remember what that's like - and i sure didnt get the shoe collection i wanted and all i ever bought was a useless* pair of Reeboks that i've barely worn 4 or 5 times and then decided that a pair of black chuck taylors were the righeous mold for my feet...which brîngs me to the bitter part : looking back at the last 5 months of my life realizing that i only changed those shoes 3/4 times....what the fuck did i do with my money ? Where did it go & why did it do so...was i mean ?
Perhaps, yes.

Probably.






*: the Reeboks are in a pastel blue with details in a muted hue of orange, i couldnt get much use out of them because they provided no support whatsoever to my feet (which are flat btw/overpronation) and i didnt have a single shirt/blouse/top/thing to match that damn thing..why did i even buy them..whyyy ???

my first

I have been procrastinating having my own space for over two..or was it three years now !!? I'll just say "Better late than nEVER" I wonder what I'll post here c: